3 years and lots of boxes later

This is my last week at my current job it seems like so many prayers have been answered all at once (except for the one that helps my bank account go above $100...c'est la vie....pay day is next week pardon me if I don't drive anywhere I'm most likely out of gas!).  

The feeling of being stuck is not a feeling that anyone wants it's like quick sand sometimes, other time its like glue, it can be so many things regardless of the feeling one thing always remains the same...you are going nowhere fast.  For awhile now I have felt so trapped and so stuck...at times I felt like I was in that quicksand, the more I struggled and fought back the more consumed I became.  Other times I was just stuck...glued down to my current spot...I could reach and wiggle but I wouldn't get anywhere.  

And then came a moment...I thought it was THE moment...finally a job that was perfect for me.  I was qualified, I was familiar with the program, what it took to do the job and I was already doing parts of it in my current job.  My boss was so convinced I had the job that he even came to congratulate me only to find out that they went with someone else, someone who has never worked with the program, or in that job "field"...let's talk about awkward moment!  I was crushed...politics...they suck...and it's not like I don't know about them...in fact I studied them in college...I'm well aware of them but regardless they still stink when you are on the short end of that stick.

That's the funny thing about motivation...it can come out of nowhere, it can come out of strange situations, it can come from crappy places, and when we least expect it and it can give us the strength to wake up the next morning put on a face and move on...dig out of the quick sand and break free.  God is funny like that sometimes...He had everyone convinced that was my door...and when it slammed shut we all kind of looked at each other like "now what?"  And then another one opened...and I had the motivation to walk away from what I thought was supposed to be my "home."

Thank goodness for best friends...Liz forwarded me a job opening for her company and fast forward through the interview, the crazy hard test I had to take and some emails and phone calls and BAM! I walked through that door.

My last week here is proving to be harder than I thought...don't get me wrong the struggle was real (while I was actually here and working...before I resigned) but as I peel pictures off the wall and take things down to put into boxes I can't help but think about the fun times and the people I will miss seeing everyday and how naked my room looks without all my color and sass and the 1000 different pictures most of which have me sporting different hair colors!

I remember the crazy Art teachers and their goofy themed Friday's, all the Track County Championships that I coached, I remember the rap my girls made about me on the way to a track meet my first year, or the time I didn't hit the right button on the phone and messed up the page system...I was laughing and crying.  I remember hiding in Wheeler's office when it was Wheeler's office crying because I was overwhelmed...or going for tape in Lauren's office when I'm stressed out.  Filming the torch relay video in K-Craig's room and Trulock's room...or just randomly stopping into Sarah's room because it's colorful and fun and who doesn't want to be in a room that is colorful and fun...not to mention she was my favorite teacher to co-teach with my first year here when I was an IA.  Our trip to VEGAS! (That's pretty much all I can say about that but it was awesome!) I remember teaching the teachers the Ice Ice Baby dance...or the tricks and jokes we've played on each other. All the birthdays, babies and weddings and even death that has brought us closer together and let us laugh and cry together...there's a big part of me that relives it every time I take something down...this could be why I'm not taking things down quickly!

 


















But the last picture I took down is an oldie but a goodie!  KP and I...I thought about leaving it there for the rest of the week just to remind me that a little bit of sass never hurts but I also need to finish packing so I took it down!

I can't wait to see what this new job has in store for me and immediately I can feel a huge weight lift off my shoulders knowing that things in my life will get better.  But there is a big part of my heart that will always be with these people. 

With Love Always,

Alex